Butler University has been berating its seniors with information about the graduation ceremony. Post-ceremony restaurant suggestions are already on the table, and a semi-structured schedule of the day is laid out.
I've applied to countless jobs, mostly with no avail. Yesterday though, I received a positive reply. I've made it past the initial phase of the hiring process and although it doesn't even mean a guaranteed interview, it's at least something. It should have made me thrilled, and at first it did. Shortly after, doubts and reality started to creep in and obstruct my positive thoughts.
This job would require a move to a new city. I don't know the company well. This job is in an industry that I'm interested in, but the job description isn't what I imagine my everyday work to be. The scariest thing is that this is just a singular example.
My doubts reach far beyond just this one job. Do I want to move to a new city? Do I have to move home? Who do I want to work for? What do I want to fill my days with? Will the right companies have openings? What do I do in the meantime?
These doubts are crippling, and I'm in dire need of a refresh button. I'm taking the rest of the week to relax, to apply nowhere and to focus on figuring out what I really want and need.
Do you have any suggestions for me? Any tips that help you get through the fits of doubt in your life? I'm all ears.