February 6, 2013


Remember my wish for 2013, to welcome the unknown? It's not going too well. In fact, I feel downright defeated by 2013 so far. 

Butler University has been berating its seniors with information about the graduation ceremony. Post-ceremony restaurant suggestions are already on the table, and a semi-structured schedule of the day is laid out.

I've applied to countless jobs, mostly with no avail. Yesterday though, I received a positive reply. I've made it past the initial phase of the hiring process and although it doesn't even mean a guaranteed interview, it's at least something. It should have made me thrilled, and at first it did. Shortly after, doubts and reality started to creep in and obstruct my positive thoughts. 

This job would require a move to a new city. I don't know the company well. This job is in an industry that I'm interested in, but the job description isn't what I imagine my everyday work to be. The scariest thing is that this is just a singular example. 

My doubts reach far beyond just this one job. Do I want to move to a new city? Do I have to move home? Who do I want to work for? What do I want to fill my days with? Will the right companies have openings? What do I do in the meantime? 

These doubts are crippling, and I'm in dire need of a refresh button. I'm taking the rest of the week to relax, to apply nowhere and to focus on figuring out what I really want and need. 

Do you have any suggestions for me? Any tips that help you get through the fits of doubt in your life? I'm all ears. 


  1. Ugh, I feel you so much on this. Life is just such a big, hole of doubt. Every time we have a break through, it's like we're programmed to stop and question it. I know you'll make the right decisions for yourself though, and I wish you the best of luck in your job search :)

    Also,I nominated you for a blogger award! Was going to tag you on Twitter but couldn't find you, did you delete Twitter? Anyway, here ya go! :)


    1. I'll definitely be joining in on the award fun! Thank you, my dear! My twitter is still alive and kicking - @adobberteen. Maybe my link is broken? Hmmm.

  2. Ah I need details!!! so exciting - and so, so scary. I remember thinking I was "tricking" my first employer when they hired me: did they know I didn't the industry? The lingo? I had no experience?? The good thing about being young is you can learn. And you, my dear, will throw yourself into wherever you land - giving 110%! Any company will be SO lucky to have you. And, if it doesn't work out the first time - you'll still get experience ... if not technical/functional experience, then with company culture, managers, etc. But really, so excited for you!